I needed to have time to feel

On Sunday a horrific life changing event happened to my friend and I and a group of people I my never see again .

We were driving past a boat in the boat yard when a young man hung himself.

We were right beside him as he did it. It seemed totally unreal. Like a movie. Everything slowed down while we all desperately tried to get him down.

I am not going into the details as they are disturbing and in a strange way private but with the help of a small group of people we managed to cut him down before he died. All those people were full of  love and courage.

Determined to save this mans life .

The young man tried to kill himself but there was love and care all around him.

It is so sad that we don’t know how to reach out with love to each other. That it takes dramatic events like this for people to show they care.

After re-reading my second blog and reflecting on the events of the last week I see that I have been feeling really sad.  That has been good for me.

I needed to have time to feel.

Life gets very busy and I have been pushing down how truely sad life has been for a long time.

How heart broken I am and my children are after their fathers suicide.

I read this quote and it made a big impact on me: “When you are depressed you are in the past. When you are anxious you are in the future. When you are at peace you are in the present.”

The present seems to be the place I want to be.

Engaged with everyone I meet and embracing the magnificent power of nature.

Camping in nature is wonderful for my soul.I feel the power of the earth pouring through my body when I walk bare foot on the ground.

A quote from the Tao Te Ching- Lao Tuz: “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is done ” I feel my spirit rising again which is exciting .

In lots of my painting I paint a horse. The horse is my spirit.

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