• I needed time to feel Fiona Whyte I needed to have time to feel

    On Sunday a horrific life changing event happened to my friend and I and a group of people I my never see again .

    We were driving past a boat in the boat yard when a young man hung himself.

    We were right beside him as he did it. It seemed totally unreal. Like a movie. Everything slowed down while we all desperately tried to get him down.

    I am not going into the details as they are disturbing and in a strange way private but with the help of a small group of people we managed to cut him down before he died. All those people were full of  love and courage.

    Determined to save this mans life .

    The young man tried to kill himself but there was love and care all around him.

    It is so sad that we don’t know how to reach out with love to each other. That it takes dramatic events like this for people to show they care.

    After re-reading my second blog and reflecting on the events of the last week I see that I have been feeling really sad.  That has been good for me.

    I needed to have time to feel.

    Life gets very busy and I have been pushing down how truely sad life has been for a long time.

    How heart broken I am and my children are after their fathers suicide.

    I read this quote and it made a big impact on me: “When you are depressed you are in the past. When you are anxious you are in the future. When you are at peace you are in the present.”

    The present seems to be the place I want to be.

    Engaged with everyone I meet and embracing the magnificent power of nature.

    Camping in nature is wonderful for my soul.I feel the power of the earth pouring through my body when I walk bare foot on the ground.

    A quote from the Tao Te Ching- Lao Tuz: “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is done ” I feel my spirit rising again which is exciting .

    In lots of my painting I paint a horse. The horse is my spirit.

  • all-that-mattered-was-love All that mattered was LOVE

    all that mattered was love fullI have found this second blog really hard to write.
    I have spent all my life seeing the best in even really tragic events that have happened to me and my family. Wanting to see the lesson life is sending me and try and still feel joy in living.

    I managed to do this through my daughter dying, living through two divorces with no support, healing a chronic illness, but I did hit rock bottom over the last three years.

    My first husband, the father of four of my children hung himself.

    This tragedy has blown my beautiful family that I had tried so hard to keep strong and connected to pieces.

    The devastation of my family was the most tragic blow to me personally . No personal success mattered to me ever. The only thing that ever mattered was the love I thought kept my family strong and connected.

    I have been forced to let go of the most valuable treasure to me and see if I can learn the lesson life is trying to teach me.

  • yes My Sacred YES!

    I am 57, I am a mother, I am an artist, All my children are independent now….

    These are questions asked by Michael Bernard Beckwith from Agape that inspired me:

    What is seeking to emerge in my life now?

    What gift can I give to the world?

    What must I become to manifest my vision?

    I am going to travel , where I am inspired to go around New Zealand in mycar, paint as I go and write a blog once a week about my adventure.

    My Sacred YES :

    I say yes to adventure.

    I say yes to fun.

    I yes to excitement.

    I say yes to joy.

    I say yes to bliss.

    I say yes to happiness.

    I say yes to beauty.

    I say yes to laughter.

    I say yes to wonderful connected conversations.

    I say yes to greatness.

    I say yes to prosperity.

    I say yes to success.

    I say yes to great health and fitness.

    I say yes to kindness.

    I say yes to gentleness.

    I say yes to my family.

    I say yes to friendship.

    I say yes to my beloved.

    I say yes to life I say yes to love.